This is my "better than a dream" girl. She's easy on the eyes, isn't she?

Logistics

Logistics are the worst part of this whole process.

I say that knowing full well that the relationship will be the hardest and most draining part of it all. The daily grind of putting Karen first in everything...is daunting to say the least. It's something that I am learning we are both already struggling with. I mean, how do you watch your tone on EVERY word. How do you choose EVERY word correctly? How do you learn to not be so sensitive to every word that the other person says, when that person is the most important thing to you? I think its the little things like that we'll struggle with. Big choices aren't going to be a problem. Heck, even making dinner plans won't be hard. Picking out towels and linens...nothing like that is as hard as the everyday/every minute grind that this is. Being that our only communication now is Skype, I think things like this get magnified. I look forward to talking to her every day. Maybe too much so. The fact that we aren't in the same country magnifies everything. It will get better as time goes by, it's not like its bad now. It's just part of our relationship.

Back to logistics. I think I have a place to live sorted out. I won't go into alot of detail until its finalized, but this is a HUGE relief. Next up...maybe last up...a job. There is a Mariott property that I've been in contact with. So far it sounds like it could be something, but you never know. They responded back to me, so I think that's a good sign. This would be an amazing relief to us both. I think we've both decided that as soon as I have a job I'll apply for a Visa and move over when its approved. I'd honestly love to leave with her when she come back after Thanksgiving.

Logistics are the thing that try my faith the most. I know it will work out long term, but int he middle of the struggle I don't FEEL that way all the time. It's a constant battle. But its another battle that has already been won. I have but to accept the victory to win.

This is it!

Well, here I go back to England again. Part of me is still in shock about the whole ordeal, but most of me isn't surprised one bit. I've felt God tugging at my heart for a while now. It's been about 6 months since I knew I'd be back, I just had NO clue how he'd get me there.

That's where Karen came in. She's the one that made me understand what would bring me back to England: HER.

I won't recount the whole process of us now. I just think it's great that she's the one that made me understand God in all this, even before she saw it herself.

The biggest problems and stresses now are the logistics. Visas, rings, dresses, plane tickets. Where to live before AND after the wedding. It wouldn't be such a hurried process, but getting a visa takes 60 days or so. Some of this stuff needs to be sorted before I can get my visa, so getting things done in a logical and timely fashion is the rallying cry right now. It's all going to get done, and done the right way. It's just that all the balls are in the air and we're waiting for them to land.

I'm truly excited and humbled right now. My life has never been this content before. I don't know how to handle it all. But hey, this is the best problem I've ever had. I'll manage.

I get to meet the future in-laws on Skype this Sunday. I am nervous a bit, but I know that they'll see how much I truly love and respect Karen. It's just going to take some getting used to. I am excited!